Spent the last 2 days filling up my Facebook page’s scheduled posts for the small web. It surprisingly takes a really long time to schedule a month’s worth of posts. I’m not too bothered by it though. It only takes 1-2 days to get them all scheduled and I believe in the cause so I’m staying motivated. I’ve also joined a lot of relevant groups of Facebook to hopefully use a spaces to help amplify these posts and get them out there so more people can discover the Small Web. We’ll see how it goes. Sharing to various groups is definitely going to be a bit more tedious since I can only schedule sharing up to 3 groups at a time, so all the other groups I post to would have to be done manually and I’m not entirely sure I have the energy or motivation to do that every day.
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As for my own site, I’ve been doing a little bit here and there. I updated Marigold.Town’s library. It’s taking awhile to get something solid up, because unlike WordPress, everything has to be coded from scratch. I have a bit of ADHD brain, and my web development is very chaotic. I work on what I want, when I want and very often get side tracked into other mini projects. xD I like working with WordPress for the same reason – it’s a lot of everything. I use a mixture of HTML/CSS/Javascript as well as a drag and drop web builder, and various plugins for other functionality. It’s the perfect web building platform for me and I feel like I get a lot done so much faster than if I were to code everything from scratch. I have debated giving up my project on Marigold.Town just because it’s so time consuming and I’m barely making progress. But I guess it doesn’t matter how slow I go, so long as I keep picking at it and making progress. I just want to build something there and be part of it without turning it into an iframe of something in WordPress, it’s just turning out to be a more tedious endeavor than I realized given my chaotic development workflow.
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In unrelated news, I’ve read 9 books so far this year! Which I think is the most I’ve ever read in a month. Currently in the process of reading 3 more books. I have doubts I’ll finish them before the end of the month but who knows. Maybe I’ll surprise myself. My reading goal for this year is to read 30 books, but if I keep up at the current pace, I’ll most likely finish in April or May, so I might have to extend my reading goal if I keep reading this much. I have a massive physical TBR I want to get through because I want to sell or donate a lot of my books before we move. My books are going to be a pain in the ass to pack and move, so if I can get rid of as many I don’t care about as I can, the better. I want to save my bookshelf space solely for hardcovers and special editions of all my favorite books that I’m likely to reread. Anything else, I’ll just read on my Kobo and be done with it so it doesn’t take so much space. I’m just starting to get overwhelmed with the amount of clutter we currently have in our small living space. I’ve been trying to gradually purge what I can but it’s definitely a process. I have about 7-8 months to purge what doesn’t spark joy before we move.
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I’ve also been thinking about my social life lately and I’m not entirely sure how I feel about it anymore. I’ve wanted to have close relationships for so long but I also feel like I’ve been set in my own ways for so long that I’m just comfortable in my own space. I started to connect with someone over the holidays and I felt it was going well, but I’m also just feeling that I’m not ready to become instant besties, and I’m kind of getting the vibe that is what the other person wants and it’s starting to feel like a lot of pressure. I’ve been trying to pull away a bit because I feel under pressure to continue making plans every time we hang out rather than feeling things out and letting the friendship grow organically, not trying to be rude about it or anything but I feel like the little bit of distance is hurting her feelings and I’m not even really sure if I should address it or not or just leave it be. I don’t want her to dislike me, and I don’t want to never hang out with her either, I just don’t feel I have the capacity to hang out every week, and I feel like that is what she wants. So I’m not really sure what to do in this circumstance. How do you tell someone you like them and want to hang out but not all the time without hurting their feelings? I’m not sure if there’s a way to do that. I’m an introvert and the way I recharge is by having my alone time and being away from people. I work almost full time hours, I’m always around people and it takes A LOT of energy out of me, and on my days off I really cherish my alone time to recharge. Maybe I can somehow explain that to her if it comes up. I’d hate to lose her as a friend because I don’t have the energetic capacity to hang out with her every week. :/ I’m just not really sure what to do. There’s another girl who wants to start getting together as well and now I’m worried I won’t have the capacity to keep up with maintaining having two friends. XD That’s kind of sad, isn’t it?
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Anyways, that pretty well sums up what’s new in my life recently and current thoughts. I’m tired now. I’m going to go take a nap.