Just took an ADHD and Autism self assessment test. I scored REALLY high on the ADHD test and am 2 points under the threshold of having strong autistic traits lmao. I’m moderate on the autism spectrum. The ADHD results didn’t really surprise me. I kind of already suspected I was, but the autism one did surprise me quite a bit. Granted, it isn’t a professional diagnosis and I probably won’t bother getting one because none of these things impact my life to an extent that I’m struggling through life or need assistance. I find it to be a super power at times when it comes to things I’m interested in, because when I hyperfocus on something, I REALLY hyperfocus on it and accomplish SO much. My website is something I hyperfocus on a lot and put a lot of time and effort in, sometimes all day I’ll hyperfocus on it, because I love it. But if it’s something I’m not interested in, it becomes really difficult, to the point I can’t maintain consistency and often end up discontinuing things, and that is really discouraging to me because unless I truly love it on a deep level, I don’t have a lot of faith in myself to complete goals, even if the goal is something I really want. I’ll get bored and just stop. Even if I want to finish it it kind of feels like I’m running into a brick wall trying to get there.
Another thing that always kind of stood out to me growing up is that I sometimes miss social cues like sarcasm and can be really gullible. I always thought it would be something I’d grow out of when I was a kid, but I never did. To this day I’m still like that. I try to mask it and shrug it off but it happens, and it’s really embarrassing when it does. C’est la vie, it is what it is. I think for the most part I pass as being normal but anyone who really knows me and knows my quirks would probably suspect I’m somewhere on the spectrum.
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Anyways, it was fun to take the test and get a rough idea of where I stood on it. Kind of nice to have some answers too for why I am the way that I am so I don’t beat myself up as much when I miss social cues or if I can’t achieve everything I want to. I won’t stop working hard to overcome things and push myself, but if I can’t, it’s okay. I have a happy life and I am happy where I am, and I think it’s great to understand myself more so I can utilize this information to hopefully become more of a super power than something that holds me back in life. I think the more we understand ourselves, we can learn to adjust and do things in a different way to makes us work better and be more efficient. Not everyone does things the same way or learns the same way, and if you know yourself and how you function, you can kind of make strategies for yourself to achieve things in a way that works for you, even if it’s different from how the rest of the world might do it. So that’s really what I want to strive to do now, starting with goals I struggle to finish that I want to achieve. I’d still really like to gain a solid understanding of web development and coding, like html, css, and javascript. I already know a lot for HTML and CSS but there’s so much more to learn. And I’d like to learn php and WordPress development too. The Small Web is one of my long term, passion interests and I feel like learning these skills could really give me a lot more purpose and help a lot of people. I could teach people things, and provide a lot more resources, and maybe finally get my little shop up and going so I can sell layouts and other things people can use on their sites that takes more effort to make. There’s really a lot I could do. Anyways, I just need to strategize my learning methods a bit.