It’s been a minute! Truth is I’ve just been way too busy and too stressed to even think about my site lately but am trying to get caught up on webring applications today. Our life circumstances have recently changed and we’re in the process of looking for a new place to live and I am ✨stressed✨ to the max. I’ve been feeling really down because this was supposed to be the year we got our first house but it’s looking like it may be another year or two if not longer before we can afford it if we can stick to a solid budgeting plan, and assuming that the cost of living doesn’t get out of control and causes it to be difficult for us to really save anything. I deeply regret moving back to my hometown. It was a very bad decision all around and would have been best if we had just stayed where we were before, but it is what it is. Can’t go back in time and change it. At the same time, I’m also glad we came back because I realized a lot of things about my past that I don’t think I realized before, and now I can properly leave the past behind me, separate myself from toxic people and circumstances, move forward, find healing, and become more independent. To put into perspective, I feel like right now I’m experiencing the “Tower” card and the “Death” card in the tarot lol. It’s a very chaotic time, very painful time, I’m experiencing the death of long time relationships and security, but on the positive side I feel like it is also a really transformative time. Once the chaos is over, it’ll bring in healing and this experience will help me become a person who can better take charge I think. I’ve learned that under a lot of pressure and stress I’m really good at getting organized and making things happen. I’d hate to live feeling like this all the time, but in situations that it’s really needed, I can really count on myself to get things done.
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Anyways, that’s where I’m at right now. I haven’t dropped off the earth completely. I’ll always come back to update this little corner of the internet that’s mine, but, this is why I’m not all that active right now. Shit hit the fan and I’m in the process of cleaning up the shit. 😂